Well, it’s been a minute. Hi, hello, how are you?
You might have noticed that I’d taken a bit of a break away from the internet again. I know – nothing new there! It’s not the first time that I’ve taken a bit of a step back from it all. It would probably be less unusual to find that I’d actually kept up a schedule over a few months. I’d like to say that’s going to change but it’s starting to feel like the only thing I’m consistent with is being inconsistent.
Right now I’m feeling pretty inspired though. Planning content, filming, writing; I won’t go into detail because it’ll spoil surprises. Who knows – I could just end up going on hiatus again. We’ll see – let’s not jinx it, shall we?
But… all jokes aside, I feel like this last break was kind of needed more than I knew.
Back in March-April time, I realised I just wasn’t enjoying myself. Posting on Instagram was a chore, filming for Youtube seemed like effort; I just didn’t feel motivated to create. Now, this is all still just a hobby for me, so when it’s not enjoyable anymore it’s time to really look at what’s the ‘why’ behind it all. At the time, I didn’t have an answer – so I decided to just stop.
Why put unnecessary pressure on myself when I didn’t have a reason behind it all?
I decided I’d give myself a month to really not think about it, like, AT ALL. Whenever I’ve taken breaks before it’s usually been a time that I spend thinking about what I should be doing + feeling pretty guilty about the time that is passing while I’m not posting.
I’d see other people juggling their career and blog etc with no problem. Then that sneaky comparison would start to set in. It’s easy to slip into. Regardless of how well I know that comparison is the quickest way to shattering your confidence, despite the fact that ‘stop comparing yourself to others’ would be the first piece of advice out of my mouth if someone asked me, it’s so ingrained into us as humans that can be hard to fight it.
Despite my preaching, comparison can still get the better of me sometimes. It’s a journey. But recognising that comparison and shutting it down is the first step to moving past it.
So that’s what I did.
I decided not to worry about what anyone else was doing while I was off Instagram. I think for about a month straight I didn’t even really open the app at all. Which is pretty unusual for most people – let alone someone that has decided to share so much online.
After that month passed I decided to start trying to write a blog post but it just didn’t feel natural to me. I decided to put together a bit of a catch up post, and I started typing that I was looking forward to creating content again, but as the words left my finger tips I felt like a liar. I just wasn’t in the mood to get back into it. I still didn’t have my spark back, so pressed delete and took a little more time away.
I focused on other areas of my life. My 9-5, my relationships and, most importantly, myself.
I got into a routine for self-care: we’re talking mentally, emotionally and physically. Re-assessed my habits and what I want. I binge-watched Netflix with no guilt, I bought new plants, I switched up my cooking, I spent time with people I love.
Overall, I took the time to care for myself and remember what is important to me.
One thing that stood out to me so much was that I’m interested in so much more than fashion. It’s the thought I always go back to. As much as I love clothes + styling, it’s not all I’m about so it doesn’t make sense for my blog to be either. So maybe there’ll be a bit more variety coming your way too.
So yeah, now we’re in July: the midpoint of 2019. The perfect point to wrap up that re-evaluation my life and set new goals/intentions. I feel more myself and more inspired than ever but I’m planning on taking the next six months as they come. I’ll be making the most of this burst of inspiration but not exhausting it to the point that I need to reset all over again.
My advice to you is this: If, like I did, you find yourself feeling a bit like you don’t know what you want anymore – embrace it. Give yourself time and focus on you. I came across a quote just the other week that really solidified everything that I’ve come to learn by taking this break recently. So I’ll leave you with this…
“Destroy the idea that you have to have to be constantly working or grinding in order to be successful. Embrace the concept that rest, recovery and reflection are essential parts of the progress towards a successful and happy life.”– Zach Galifianakis